Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Thesis

Now the moment you've all been waiting for..

The thing that's keeping me busy since last semester.. my thesis.. jeng, jeng jeng.. My Thesis is entitled 'Kesan Teh hijau(Camellia sinensis) terhadap Jangkitan Trypanosoma evansi secara in vivo dalam Mencit (Mus musculus)'..What I'm currently trying to do is to find out whether green tea has any effect on this parasite or not.. That's it... sounds simple huh??

To briefly explain about my experiment, first, I prepared the parasite stock.. T.evansi, then transfer to my mice for experiment.. then treat them with green tea which consist of various concentrations in two ways, force-feeding and injection... If you want to know more read my full thesis.. which doesn't exist yet.. XD

My experiment is supposed to be short and can finish in one month... because this parasite if not not treated can kill my mice in at least 5 days... BUT... I had to face many problems.. Minor ones that slows the process.. well, I don't want to brag around about my problems.. instead, I'll show you the near death experience of one of my mice experiments:







I know to some people, this seems very cruel.. We scientists do not intend to kill them.. we're testing new stuff on them just to make our lives better.. (that sounds a bit selfish now doesn't it? XD). It's not like we WANT to kill them on purpose or anything.. So, animal lovers out there, please give us a break.. I'm not some kind of mad scientist(Hopefully won't turn out as one)Well, what we can do is be thankful to them for sacrificing and giving us good information and discovery from the experiments.. I DO feel guilty of doing this to them and sometimes I screw up making there lives not worth dying.. Anyway, I'll do the best that I can to minimize the screw ups...

Friday, February 6, 2009

Forgetful, clumsy, careless and prone to mistakes


I made the same mistake for the 4th time in my experiment today.. I forgot to fix my blood film with methanol and straight away stained them with giemsa.. So my trip to Rumah Haiwan today was a waste of time.. I felt stupid... I had some problems earlier... Guess I can't handle distractions even a little.. I'm impatient and always not thinking stuff through thoroughly.. I'm always like this.. That's why my thesis is going nowhere.. I hate myself for that.. Why do I keep making the same mistakes over and over? Is it because I'm losing focus? Or maybe it's some kind of a disease? Or am I naturally stupid? This happens a lot in my life.. I tend to forget a lot of stuff.. Important stuff even.. like my car keys.. I manually locked my car with the keys still inside..(T.T).. I was like #@$%$#&!!!! WTH!!.. DAMMIT,DAMMIT AND DAMMIT!!!.. I'm also clumsy.. I can't remember how many beakers(1000ml) I broke so far... and 1 measuring cylinder(500ml) which is very important and rare to find in the lab.. The lab is running out of beakers because of me... I felt awful... Sorry everyone..

I've also had experience in letting people down.. When they entrusted me with a favor or other stuff and always forget them and eventually failed to do them.. sorry.. Why am I like this? Even if I DID remember, I tend to lose focus in what I'm doing at the moment.. Guess I need to increase my 'RAM'.. Or get a better 'processor' ... (WTH.. I'm not a computer).. but it'd be great if I'm accurate like a computer.. at least it'll minimize the mistakes and errors.. Maybe it's lack of exercise.. I dunno.. probably.. or maybe I did something REALLY REALLY bad that I'm getting bad luck all the time... hehehe..

I also realised when I'm counting stuff, I tend to lose count all the time.. I'm losing focus.. DAMMIT, DAMMIT AND DAMMIT!! It's true that people make mistakes... Once we make mistakes, we must learn from them not repeat them.. So, in my case, it's not working very well.. Anyway, whenever bad times like this happens, I'll go home and meet my family, and that makes me somewhat 'recharged' and can go on living.. heh.. Maybe I need to make notes or something to plan stuff, but then I'd be too lazy to write... Well, I don't really know what to do accept pray and doa.. I'd happily accept advice from anyone.. I'll try my best to change for the greater good..

Monday, February 2, 2009

My Girlfriend masuk hospital lagi ..

It's that time again.. my girlfriend had to go to the 'Doctor' today.. The 'Doctor' said the problem was at the front legs.. they said an operation had to be done.. Is she going to make it?..
wait a second... front legs?? OK I'll just cut the crap.. My so called Girlfriend is my Kancil (Why the heck am I treating my car like a real person?.... it's just a car... WRONG!!.. to me, she's really really special.. the best companion I ever had.. XD)..
............ What a load of crap.. Don't you think? I'm trying my best to make this post sound a little interesting.. hahaha..

Anyway, this morning, I had to send my Kancil to the workshop just to see what seems to be the problem.. OK, it wasn't really an emergency situation.. Last week, I noticed that the steering wheel was a bit loose.. so I got worried.. What will I ever do without my 'Girlfriend'??.. this little but wonderful car has served my family and I for generations.. hahahaha.. naaaah.. just for 13 years.. but still 13 years is a long time... I've been with this car since I was 9.. Wow, come to think of it, I never thought I'd actually drive it.. I thought it's not gonna last for this long..

I wouldn't have a car right now if it weren't for my dad's promotion.. now my Dad's using the company's car and my Mom's using the Waja.. Thanks Dad.. and most importantly thank you Allah for blessing me with this wonderful car.. This car has gone way back.. and I've undergone many adventures with it.. lol not really.. me getting lost in some unknown city is considered as an adventure .. hahahaha.. This car saved me many times.. not only me, others too.. I love my kancil...

Well, the 'operation' was a success and the bill was.... such a burden.. The total comes down to about RM 600.. very expensive.. see.. its not all too easy having a car..Wait a minute.. who am I to complain? I'm not the one paying (Sorry Dad.. heh).. hahahaha.. Anyway, anyone out there who owns a car, please be grateful..

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Blog Newbie


Finally.. I'm starting a blog.. well, at least I think I did.. I'm new at this.. blogging is like a diary isn't it? if it is, then this blog won't last that long I guess.. I tried to write a diary once back then but after 2 to 3 days I stopped doing it... too lazy to write.. guess I'm not that type.. It doesn't have to be like a diary, I'll update if I have so much free time like right now..

Well anyway, Ive been trying to think of ideas of what to write in this blog... so far my best interest is towards anime and computer games.. Sometimes, I think I should do something else.. I've been watchin'em since I was a kid and STILL watching even after 21 years.. when am I going to grow up? some people write about their feelings and other fancy stuff.. I find it hard to express my feelings.. I'm gonna try blogging and see how it turns out.. I'm not expecting much from this but its worth a try.. here goes..